Have I lost my bottle?

Well, the ceramics project weant well, I got some good comments (verbally - haven't got the official report yet), and I really felt I could carry on making these objects and that I'd finally found something that I was good at that was worthwhile. The work was not as beautiful as I'd planned (the cobalt blue a bit wishy-washy for my liking, bit chinese-willow pattern or Dutch as opposed to Modernist blue, turns out barium would have been better), but as a mulitple displayed with the yellow is is pretty striking and of course the piece breaks into usuable units - beauty AND utility!


The problem now is - what do I do next? Do I stand up for my vision and continue making the bottles so that I can acheive the biggest extraordinary installation of ceramic "beautility" objects I can - invoking irritation and misunderstanding from my painting tutors and peers; taking up room on the benches, shelves and kilns in the Ceramics department; using the technicians time and expertise and using the materials, some of which I will have to pay for, to start with a blunger of slip costs out at anout £70 they reckon..? Or do I try and revisit my actual paintings on canvas, try and find something inspiring in my own work and that of others to motivate me and that will give me enough spiritual energy to put in the cognitive/subconcious effort and time/physical effort that such a new start would require. I really feel I need to back down and produce what will get me my BA, not be awkward just for the sake of making something I like personally: as I said to my tutor yesterday "I would love to do something cool and modernist
[with contrasting colours] but I dont think I will be able to get away with it..."