Tate Modern, Wednesday 5th April and Chelsea College of Art - with a sore back

This day was hard work. I am still aching.
I often feel overwhelmed when I go into a gallery, full of seeing and thinking, emotions and contextualising. Its even worse when the work is "busy". Sometimes art can be demanding just for the sake of being demanding. This was certainly the case with Kippenberger. I wish I had not seen it after Moholoy Nagy and the Bauhaus work, left it to another day or just not seen it at all. My role as an art-student means I have to expose myself to everything and load myself with more and more, but I am not a pack-horse. I can only carry so much on this journey, and the fact I have lived this life of mine for 36 years means I carry a lot more besides. I have to put something down to make room for something else, which is why I really need to only look at one artists output at a time. I felt like I was carrying just about enough with the first show, it felt like a well distributed load as well. Just about heavy enough. Maybe call me a lightweight, maybe say that those geometric works with all their inconsequential diagrammatic forms and colours are an insubstantial load, but they were enough for me. To then heap the innumerous products of an egomaniac drunkard on top of that was too much. The weight was then uneven, I found it physically hard to walk after that, and then my companion took me to Chelsea College of art where we found a crowd of MA students in forced gaiety mode cooking food on folding tables and drinking under a sea of sickly coloured crepe decorations, looking for all the world like one of those Brownie exercises that one is forced to do to celebrate the diversity of the world to earn badges, whilst surrounded by World Muzak. Exercises in futility, the last two events. Worthy? I dont know. They probably think so. They probably think they are making some bold new comment on society - oh, no of course not, nothing is EVER new in this "postmodern" era. But whatever it is they were doing, they weren't trying, they were too aware. In my opinion you have to hive yourself off - at least occiasionally - to really "try" an idea properly, before you "try" it on your contemporaries and an audience. Otherwise its just shouting in a riot - and thats what Kippenbergers paintings looked like - just a lot of shouting in an already loud world.